JPA interview

when 1st c this title,

everyone sure like thinking that I got it..

True, I was called to this JPA interview.

But,

I give up already.

so, no more JPA stuff in my life forever.

I feel so emo, after I know that I got it.

like I am deciding for my future.

sure many people feel like I am insane.

Got the opportunity but dont even want to try.

I also feel that too.

Why I just give it up so easily?

Why dont i try?

I really did think seriously about it for 2 hour.

the end,

I still give up.

too many thing to think about it.

When I know that I got the interview,

seriously I didnt feel happy or excited.

Instead I am so calm.

My mind is quite a mess up,

when I ask everyone should I go,

everyone called me to try it,

at least I should try and put my effort into it,

but, something on the mind just stopping me to this interview.

What I know that if I really get it,

I will never go too.

So, just let it pass...

I know one day I surely regret but this is my decision.

I cant blame myself in the future.

I miss the chance myself.